five sets of two hands, fingers spread wide
my best friend lying next to me squeaks out
“never have I ever masturbated”
a chortle and a shrug between the boys as they flick down their obligatory fingers
and I can’t help but feel a twinge in my stomach as my pinky follows suit
the silence in the room is thick and grey and suddenly sliced by
have you ever experienced fun?
I pull away a hair caught in my scarlet lipstick
in my reflection I see my table mate from english class
behind me she blinks twice and scoffs
“who are you trying to impress?”
the bathroom door is closed behind her before I can ask
the last time she did something to impress herself.
before a trip to the mall
one of my friends spends two hours
perfecting her bronzer
and choosing the perfect pair of shoes
the other rubs in dry shampoo
and is out the door in less than five minutes
they are two of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever seen.
my father calls me beautiful through a mouthful of popcorn
as I pour a glass of milk to accompany my now third piece of leftover birthday cake
he plants a kiss on my cheek and I grin as I wipe it away.
she asks me what to do to start loving herself
and I send her away to my full length mirror
and demand to only speak to her
when she’s found something to adore
the way I did with my knobby knees
and tiger-striped hips
and big square teeth
fifteen minutes go by
and she finally points to the freckles on her nose
splits into a grin
the one that makes everyone weak in the knees
and I watch the lightbulb go off above her head
as she realizes
it’s never been her job to hate her body
i tell my sister she looks cute today
and the look on her boyfriend’s face
when she blurts out “damn right I do!”
I used to worry that I’d never find someone who loved me at all
and now my biggest fear
is finding someone who can adore me as much as I’ve come to.
— seven thoughts on self love that came to me before I got my driver’s license (llb)
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11:46 pm • 20 septembre 2014 • 38 573 notes
when you are playing FORT DEFENSE TWO and the MEDICAL DOCTOR gives you the INVULNERABILITY
(Source : z0jja, via senseiofficial)
11:41 pm • 19 septembre 2014 • 8 315 notes
*thinks about cutting off all my hair to fit into the androgyny form promoted by white kids*
*remembers how hot i am*
u dnt need short hair to be andro or a boy, u dnt have to be white or have stick straight hair or anything. sick of seeing us being represented exclusively by white thin kids w their side swept hair.
gender is not ur physical appearance.
8:32 pm • 19 septembre 2014 • 3 038 notes
The Sohoku Anime Club, or the AU in which Onoda gets everything he wanted.
I may or may not be planning more of these… (hint: I am)
8:21 pm • 19 septembre 2014 • 3 074 notes
being a cishet looks boring why do people do that
Idk maybe bc sexuality/gender isnt based on how cool or interesting an individual wants to look
yeah but why be boring when u can be awesome and not cishet
yeah but why treat lgbt+ identities like some trendy fashion accessory that ppl can just slap on to look cool when u could not act like a complete idiot
(Source : demiflower-remade43234, via nephilimboys)
7:39 pm • 19 septembre 2014 • 41 344 notes
As I’m currently between jobs, I’m returning to commissions as a source of rent and utility money while I look for new work (because let’s be real, beds and running water are both pretty neat things).
My rates are $5 USD for every 500 words, and I take payment through paypal. You can check this tag and my Ao3 right here to see examples of things like DRAMAtical Murder, Attack on Titan, and Homestuck. From gen fics to fluff to whatever smut you want, regardless of the pairing (this includes fan characters) or kink, I will write it.
You can contact me through my ask or submit box, and from there we’ll discuss how long you’d like the fic to be and the characterization you want to see, since I think we all know that in fandom it can vary pretty wildly. (Of course if you’re wanting me to write for fan characters, we’ll discuss it more in-depth.)
Thank you for taking the time to read this post, and even if you’re unable to commission anything at this time, I’m deeply grateful to anyone who is able to reblog it.
Hey everyone, just a quick reminder that I’m very much open for commissions, especially given the difficult circumstances I’m in right now.
6:10 pm • 19 septembre 2014 • 148 notes